DAY 4, ugh.

I am not even going to beat around the bush with this one. Today sucked. I was a total waste of space and juice. So very upset with myself. I am honestly considering quitting this at the end of the week.I can't even tell you what I juiced today, really don't care to remember. If it was any good I would've remembered. This is a full time job! All I do is juice, take apart, wash, put back together, blend, take apart, wash, put back together, grocery shop, peel, slice, dice, wash, juice. What am I really getting out of this? Am I destined to be fat the rest of my life? Why don't I have enough will power? DO I have enough will power? How can I make this better? How do I improve? Why do I fuck everything up all the time? Can't I just start something and finish it well? Why do green juices have to be SO vile? Will I EVER be able to drink a green juice? Will I ever be able to add anything other than fruits, carrots, spinach and cucumber to my juice? Am I a sally ass? Why do I have a texture issue? Do I have a texture issue or is this my way of making excuses as usual? Why can't I push my body anymore? Why can"t I drink enough water? Why can't I find a happy medium between juice and water? Why isn't MY juicer here yet? Why is my daughter doing this? Why don't my friends and family understand why I WANT to do this? Why DO I want to do this? When will I get my life in order? Has my life BEEN in order all along and now I'm just screwing it up? Is this really as good for my body as the Juice God's say it is? Why am I running out of GOOD juice recipes? WHY WHEN I GO PRODUCE SHOPPING WHY DOES ONE CAR INSIST ON TAKING UP 3 PARKING SPOTS!? Why do people drive like assholes? Why do trains only come when I am in a hurry to get somewhere? Why do I have such an awful headache? Why do I have no energy? Why do people expect so much from me but refuse to give back? Why do I give so much of myself? Why do I KEEP giving? Why can't I say no? Why do I ache all over? Why can't I catch a break once in a while? Why are cranberries only available frozen in the summer? Why do I have to press one for English? Why does there have to be purists in EVERY FUCKING THING?! Why can't I ever come up with a good answer? Why can't people just MTOB?! Why does McDonalds, Taco Bell, Burger King, and all these other shitty ass fast food places even exist!? Do people honestly believe they serve "food"? Do you have ANY idea what is in  McDonalds, Taco Bell, Burger King and all these other shitty ass fast food places ? Am I in withdrawal? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!